Elizabeth Gilbert, one of my favorite people on the planet, recently posted another version of the quote in the above picture* on her Instagram account. It really hit home. I began to think back to all the moments in my life, especially recently, where it felt like nothing I did or said would ever be enough for some folks in this world. No matter how happy my family life, how much I read up on, researched, shared, learned, or spoke out about this issue or that: nothing would ever be good enough. I was frustrated and at an impasse. I would resume study at CTS in February, working to attain a masters level expertise in studies of divinity, knowing that–regardless of my degree of knowledge–it might never be enough. I thought ahead to the future of my career in ministry, knowing that no matter how much I served, helped, and preached, I will may never reach some folks.
I felt, on some level, that I was not enough. I was so not enough. I had a very clear idea how “not enough” I was.
Then I started taking seriously the advice I found from authors like Elizabeth Gilbert, Brené Brown, Glennon Melton, and Pema Chödrön. I began being still and knowing:
Knowing that I, like everyone on this planet, am a child of God.
Knowing that I am fearfully, beautifully, and wonderfully made.
Knowing that I am made in the image of God.
And knowing that whatever all of that means, it must mean that I am good and that I am enough.
It doesn’t matter if there are pockets of humanity that will never fully notice my enoughness and my goodness. It doesn’t matter because God notices. God sees me.
So here it is, my one and only** “resolution” for this year: take a few minutes a day to meditate on my enoughness. That meditation will take different forms each day. Today, it looks like this: blogging my enoughness. Tomorrow, it may look like two minutes of literal meditation.
Whatever it looks like, I will remind myself, my kids, and my husband that we are–separately and together–enough just as we are.
And this is my prayer for you, friend: That you will remember throughout the year how enough you are. You don’t need to be better or more. You are you. You are loved. You are a child of the Divine. You are enough.
Grace and peace.
*Image generated by me using the WordSwag App on my iPhone.
**I’d also like to spend less time on social media, but I’m trying NOT to set myself up for failure. Let’s be realistic, shall we?